This concept of waiting well came to me this morning during my devotional. As Christians, we talk about waiting on God’s timing. But waiting, and waiting well, are two different things. Waiting well involves commitment, trust, and focus. Focus and trust in God and a focus on and commitment to His will, not ours.
Unwavering waiting – I don’t know about you, but when I wait on God, I can begin to fret about what could happen, about what I want to happen that might not, and a million other things in between. My waiting involves a lot of nail biting prayer and scripture reading to bring my blood pressure and anxiety levels back down. There are times I am tempted to pick up whatever I have laid down and try to work it out myself. Scripture reading helps me remember that my handiwork never works out well and that it is better to wait on God.
Am I waiting well? That is what has been troubling me for the past year. My family has been struggling with a very difficult issue. I have spent many hours a day in prayer – tear-filled prayers spoken from a crushed, broken heart.
It isn’t that I don’t have faith in what God is able to do. My past is filled with examples of God’s grace and mercy in troubling times. I know He is faithful. I know He is just. I know that whatever comes to pass has purpose, even if that purpose causes pain. I also know that He will carry me through that pain.
I think of David when he was praying and fasting for his son’s life (2 Samuel 12). Once his prayers went unanswered, he stopped his fasting, worshipped God, and moved on. I have had storms that God has brought me through, and I have storms that God stopped.
So why the worry?
It isn’t that I doubt God’s faithfulness no matter what He asks – I am worried He WILL ask me.
I earnestly pray, my hope securely centered on God, knowing He hears me. For now, my prayer is that He will carry us through this storm. I pray the relentless rain soon ceases.